Growth/Decline of AlchemistArea [2006-2016]

2006 [Preschool] - Feeling: Happy. I felt really happy and joyous all the time, because I didn't know there was any other way to feel.
2007 [Kindergarten] - Feeling: Welcomed. At this point, I'd made my very first friend, and I'd loved the feeling of making friends.
2008 [1st grade] - Feeling: Humorous. I'd discovered I'd loved to make people laugh.
2009 [2nd grade] - Feeling: Wondering. I'd learned a lot of stuff this year. Not just about my love of math and my smarts, but about the world around me, and how it functions.
2010 [3rd grade] - Feeling: Evil. For the first time in my life, I'd wanted to inflict emotional pain directly on others, on purpose. I loved the way that felt too, and I'd gained my first bad quality.
2011 [4th grade] - Feeling: Borderline. I had tasted my first feelings of sadness, but I wanted others to feel good at the time and had gotten over my evil phase, so I decided to act happy on the outside, as best I could.
2012 [5th grade] - Feeling: Arrogant. I'd felt extreme pride in myself and cared not of the haters at this time in my life.
2013 [6th grade] - Feeling: Broken. I'd gone through another evil phase, and lost all my friends because of it. I didn't care, as I still had a couple of friends.
2014 [7th grade] - Feeling: Depressed. I'd been extremely sad at this point in my life. I saw something horrible on the worst day of my life that happened this year, and it affected me for almost the entirity of the following month.
2015 [7/8th grade] - Feeling: Unsure/Regretful. BFOD. Enough said.
2016 [8th grade] - Feeling: Screwed/Depressed. I can't go on like this. I need to change, move on while I still can, to get a happy ending, but people aren't letting me! Help...